Oh my fucking god, I weigh 117. I can't remember the last time I weighed this much. I was doing so good up until yesterday when I decided that it would be okay to eat the whole fucking freezer. God damn it. I swear, I am going to throw up so much tonight that my throat fucking dies a horrible and painful death, that way I wont be able to fucking eat anymore. Holy fucking hell. I can't believe this. I have a doctors appt. tomorrow, and if they weigh me and I weigh any more than 116 I swear I will just die. I just drank a whole fucking starbucks chocolate brownie frapuccino. Jesus christ, you know how many calories are in that? Oh my god.

Tonight at midnight I'm starting a fast..no calories whatsoever.