I am such a fucking failure. I should be shot. I dont even want to list all the things I've eaten today, all I know is that I probably weigh 120 or something like that. I have absolutely no self control and it's tearing me apart. I remember when I could go with eating just one eggwhite a day, and now I can't go without putting food in my mouth for more than five minutes. God, if I'm going to be living so miserable, what's the point in living at all?